I need energy...

When you are on your feet for the better part of a 10 hour shift, it's extremely hard to want to come home and work out.  Even walking seems like it might send me over the edge.  I came home today and it was all I could do to not fall asleep on the drive home.  Thank goodness for a/c and loud music!  I got home and quickly laid down on the bed to play with Madison.  Within an hour I was passed out asleep.  Luckily David cooked us some delicious spaghetti because I probably would have just slept the night away.  I have to do something though.  I have to get rid of this baby fat.  I keep telling myself I am not buying any new clothes until I lose weight...at this rate I might be wearing the same clothes in 10 years.  Part of me says why try hard to lose weight if I am going to try to give Madison a brother any time soon.  However, I don't want to make it that much harder to lose weight later.  Aubrey and I had been walking our neighborhood last week which was nice...I think we just need to step it up to jogging because I know if I did that a few times a week I would lose weight.  I just need the energy.  Maybe when the time changes we can  start going earlier so I don't give myself time to get home and too tired to move. 

Today was a better day at work.  Thankfully I have AJ there with me and she is so nice to have around in that store.  Thankfully I was able to avoid conversation with people who irritate me too.  It's nice to be able to just work and get things done and not have to deal with, well, irritating individuals is a nice way to say it.  I know I know, there are people you have to 'learn' to work with everywhere you go.  Really though, sometimes it's just not worth the energy to go around and around every day.  I get to point sometimes where I am tired of all the talk and just want to work in silence.  Be alone in my thoughts....daydream about my baby girl and how she will change over the next few months. 

I cant wait for the weekend.  David has talked about doing something fun...we will see if it happens.  I know I just don't want to do like my last weekend off and do nothing but house chores.  I need to do something to destress.